I need some sets of wardrobe ..

Before i cannot admit to myself that i am fat.. but recently i so can feel it.. For medical purposes i went to the clinic 3 weeks ago to have a chest x-ray and unfortunately i also have to take my weight. I really never wanted to know how much i weight now but i have to .. and KA BLAM!!! it was like a big bomb to me .. i weight 53Kls... i feel so sorry for myself.
Recently i have been eating out...i have a lot of rice intake in a day so that adds to my weight. I am having problems every morning.. i cannot decide what to wear because i look fat on what ever i plan to wear. Sometimes ever if i wanted to wear what i think that is best for the day .. it does not fit me anymore .. I am really becoming depressed.. i dont know what to do .. yeah i do jog 3 times a week but i cannot resist eating lately. I always feel that i am empty so i have to eat..
I need some sets of wardrobe but i have a low budget for the month..i have to pay my rent and some bills so i think i need to really loose weight as soon as possible..
What shall i do? .. I dont know how to go on a real diet.. Please help...